Lying in bed sick ...

Within 2 minutes of flipping blindly through television channels I heard two monumental pieces of advice that I completely needed: drive through your road blocks, and face your fears. JHC I really needed that.

I got myself in super deep, way over my head and my ego is playing games. Kicking the ego out is really tough but it's what I need to do. I need to dance and let go. I know I will make myself proud. So, tv did teach me something. Wow.

Really?

Has it really been over a year since my last post?? So much going on but not much has changed. Kiddos are doing great and so are J and I - Loving the change in weather. The chill in the air feels incredible on summer skin. The garden went insane this season - zucchini and tomatoes going crazy. Enough to make plenty of yummy vegan goodies. Will post more this year, promise ...

Hunger

Americans don't know how to be hungry, especially American women. It is an amazing discovery. Not hunger for success or hunger to strive - Basic hunger. Hunger for food. We need to instantly feed ourselves the second we feel the first grumble. Shoving food into the mouths that pause the talking long enough to feed the beast.
We nourish ourselves in a way that others don't. I get that. I understand replacing human emotion and feeling with food. This starts with feeling hunger. But hover on that feeling for a moment - feel the control that you do have. Yes, that pause can be dangerous. Eating disorders empower that person who knows hunger and treats it incorrectly. I want you to embrace the pause for a moment and feel what it's like to be hungry. Is that what most of the world feels on a daily basis? Is it what some children feel before going to bed?
Feel the power you have over emotion, lust, need, willpower. Put the doughnut down. Feel the hunger and touch the moment in time where you can think about what you really need.
What is it that you need?

How green is your diet ...

More teeth and kitties

b. lost another tooth and we found c.'s bray kitty - thank the stars!
b. also started school, ok well she went 1 day and now has 5 days off. she had no issues and didn't even look to the door when c. and i left. man she is tough. but i'm a mess. the house was so quiet when c. and i got home. we laid around and moped for hours. we have a lot of adjusting to do. but in the end i am so proud of her - what an angel.

Lost a Tooth

b. lost her first tooth today and i was trusted to pull it out - holy cow was it creepy. she now covets the lone tooth in her pocket and will not let the tooth fairy come into her room. she is also worrying that there is no tooth fairy in our area - "not to worry" i mentioned to her that there are typically many fairies who cover the region - her tooth will also not leave the premises according to the detailed note she left the fairy. lots of rules to follow - i feel for the winged one who enters our home tonight.
good gravy it just gets better and better.

Here Kitty Kitty Kitty

c. lost THE security item of the century - gray kitty. what is a parent to do when said item goes awol?? i can't help but feeling incredibly anxious and sad. c. is taking it way better than i am - why is that? i put so much into this kitty that i can't rest well at night. i think of this poor, beaten, under stuffed and over loved creature lost in the world and i weep. okay maybe no weeping is actually occurring but i am uneasy at the fact that she is lost. many nights are fitful and c. is upset too. i'm a wimp when it comes to losing items, i admit it. i hate losing my own stuff, be it a sock, sunglasses or my car. okay i don't lose stuff permanently very often but i when i do i feel it in my heart.
longing for this pathetic looking stuffed animal is indeed taking minutes off of our sleep.
where are you 'bray' kitty??